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Yesterday,

one of my friends “supposedly” bumped into a cute guy on the train and they got to talking.

I asked her what he looked like and said, “Oh! You’ll see. He’s coming to meet up with us today.” So I replied, “Okay, sure.”

My back was turned to him when he walked toward us. My friend didn’t even make a gesture to warn me that he was in back of me. When he hugged her, I couldn’t really see his face. But I knew. From the bottom of my heart, I just knew who this guy was.

I met him through a guy friend. And I’ve heard rumors about him; about how he likes to chase after girls, smother them with his abusive words, and leave them heartbroken.

I shook his hands and played it off like I never met him before. He just smiled.

How do I break it to her that I already don’t like this douche? I’m known for straight talk but she thinks this is her chance to finally find true love. I’ve seen too many of my girlfriends allow the “right” men into their lives only to be left alone in the end.

Maybe, I’m just speaking through my own experiences. I have felt what it’s like to be “in love” with the right one but end up feeling so shattered when the truth finally comes out.

I want to tell her. I really do. But I can’t break it to her. I can’t just tell her that all I’ve heard were rumors because it doesn’t make it factual. To her, I’m just destroying the little happiness she has left after her last boyfriend. I just don’t want to see her pick up the pieces he’s left behind after he screws her over. And I don’t want to have to lend her my shoulder to cry on because I didn’t tell her sooner.

I think I just need some sleep. The matter-of-fact is that I will eventually tell her because it’s too much to keep inside. But when that moment comes, I hope she’s more open-minded to hear me out.

12/01/09 • 0 notes